What does it mean to be delivered?
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He said, “I love You, O Jehovah, my strength.”
Jehovah is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge;
My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
I call upon Jehovah, who is worthy to be praised,
And I am saved from my enemies.
— Psalm 18:1-3
This will be a somewhat detailed story about when I was being called on by God after having lived most of my life in the world. At the time I was being called, I was unaware God was behind it because I had reached a point in my life, at age 49, where I now seriously doubted God existed, at least the one from the Bible. In my heart, I still felt a strong spiritual connection pulling at me. It was a very strong pull from Nature itself...the trees, the wind, the butterflies, the beautiful colors of nature, I felt so connected and at peace with it, but I didn't understand why. Why did I long to return to the earth...for my life to end here on this earth?
I've shared a poem called "I Understand", it's posted on the menu bar above, simply click My Testimony. There I speak on how I tried ending my life in my 40's, vowing afterwards, to never do it again.
As I turned 50 years old in 2018, I found myself having some clarity on life for the first time. I started seeing things for what they really were. I learned to not trust any humans, to not put faith in anything they were saying...I already gave up on the religious and now, it was political. I didn't know why I was suddenly so aware of so much deception around me, but I was.
The new year has come, January of 2019 my life changes FOREVER. Now, I often think of the story about Mary and the demons that were cast out. Little had I known she was an archetype for one who was to come in our day.
[Now after He had risen early on the first day of the week, He first appeared to Mary Magdalene (the Tower g3094), from whom He had cast out seven demons.
— Mark 16:9
It is she that prepares the way...
[Mal 3:1 RSV] "Behold, I send my messenger to prepare the way before me, and the Lord whom you seek will suddenly come to his temple; the messenger of the covenant in whom you delight, behold, he is coming, says the LORD (Jehovah/Yahweh) of hosts.
I didn't remember the story about Mary then. I had left religion in my early teens to never pick up a Bible since. I never owned one. I had a few memories about Adam and Eve, Armageddon, and a key phrase in Portuguese that I never forgot; "As coisas anteriores já passaram” that I later found in the book of Revelation, not to mention a hymn of a song I learned as a child that helped me go to sleep and that I would hum to help each of my boys as I was putting them to sleep.
and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain. 👉 The first things passed away.”
— Revelation 21:4
Song: "Forward you witnesses"
Click here to listen: Holocaust Encyclopedia
Excerpt:
"Musician Erich Frost was a devout Jehovah's Witness active in the religious resistance to Hitler's authority. Frost was caught smuggling pamphlets from Switzerland to Germany and was deported to the Sachsenhausen concentration camp near Berlin. There, he composed this song in 1942."
I have written about many of my experiences on this blog since I've returned in 2019. See the menu bar above or sidebar for each post.
I've since been reminded by GOD to look at the significance of many things, my name Maria, my birthplace and so on, and most recently my nickname "Mila", which I'm still called by some of my siblings, it is short for Emilia (e-mee-lyah).
Meaning for "Mila" in Hebrew:
It was a pleasant surprise to say the least...
The same was in the beginning with God.
— John 1:2
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Today, I will focus on some details. I will reveal how I was transformed. No, it was NOT as simple as just "believing in Christ" that made me born again. As stated earlier, as this was happening, I didn't even know I was being called on from God or if God even existed.
They transformed the beauty of His ornaments into pride, and they made the images of their abominations and their detestable things with it; therefore I will make it an impure thing to them.
— Ezekiel 7:20
In January of 2019, my brain became a supercomputer, I was aware of every detail that surrounded me, patterns, numbers, colors, it all meant something, mostly disturbing. My past hurt and regrets were thrown in my face so very often and in everything I saw.
At first, I became aware of the United States Government trying to control my thoughts and body, it was a little later that I understood it was a demon (Satan) who was in control. Since then, I continued to experience additional attacks of demons in the form of governments...specifically, England, Russia, China, France, Israel and the Vatican, alongside of the United States.
- The seven demons, does it ring a bell?
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but 👉against the rulers, against the authorities, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.
— Ephesians 6:12
- Then it goes and takes along seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they go in and live there, and the last state of that man becomes worse than the first.”
— Luke 11:26
- What did they do?
They replayed thoughts in my head using "programming" I had received throughout my entire life, music, movies, etc. God revealed how I had been hypnotized by their sorcery. I couldn't go into a grocery store without feeling faint. Everything became like a dictionary; it all had meaning...only it was a dictionary of demons. I couldn't look at a box of "Harvest" breakfast bars without being reminded of something evil...the dark deeds of Halloween and evil spirits.
It was a TRUE-LIFE NIGHTMARE. I was no longer in a world I recognized, thrown down into the pits of hell (Tartarus) while still on earth...thankfully, God held on to me and I CHOSE to NEVER let go and I put my full TRUST IN HIM.
Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will make you mighty, surely I will help you;
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
— Isaiah 41:10
I remember being blackmailed in my thoughts by the US government, if I didn't conform to what they wanted, my entire life would be exposed for the world to see. My family would be impacted and mistreated. That all (literally everyone) have been watched and recorded through phones, TV's, computers and so much more. Just imagine it. The horror of what they planned to do, not just to me, but to those I loved. I begged God to take me as a ransom, I deserved it, even if it meant I would never ever return again, at least I would take Satan with me.
I would never want anyone to experience the horrors I was going through...EVER.
Soon after, my loved ones were used against me. Never understanding how much hurt they were causing me and what I was going through. I lost my relationship with most of my family, my children and my husband. It was heartbreaking.
I was so severely attacked by demons to a point where I was becoming anorexic, all of my bones began protruding through my skin, I was size 0, borderline of wearing children's clothing. At this point, God made sure I would heal from the basket filled with medications, especially the psychotic medicines doctors had put me on for sleep and migraines. Reminding me to never allow myself to be influenced by them again.
To this day I am of sound mind and medicine free, only taking an Excedrin migraine on rare occasions or 1/4 of BP med if a ministroke hits. In the end, God decides when my time will come.
- What if you were blackmailed and told all of your skeletons would be exposed?
- What would you do?
- Would you fear others knowing the darkest of the darkest of your secrets and give in?
- What if they threatened your loved ones?
- Would you remain loyal to your inner self, your true innocence... to God?
- Would you TRULY put your faith in God, believing he would protect you?
Do you not know that you are a sanctuary of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you? If any man destroys the sanctuary of God, God will destroy him, for the sanctuary of God is holy, and that is what you are.
— 1 Corinthians 3:16-17
At the time, still not fully understanding that God was with me, I truly believed that my entire life was going be put on display, on jumbotrons around the world, as a spectacle, for the world to see how I failed God. It wasn't just about the bad that was done to me, but the bad I've said and done towards others.
Anyone who has dealt with any kind of substance abuse (alcohol or drugs) knows how dark your mind can go...knows you can blackout mentally and still function physically, doing things you can't remember doing, unless someone told you about it afterwards or having mini flashbacks of what you did. When I was about 40 years old, that became a big part of why I tried to end my life. I remember thinking: "I don't belong here, no matter what I do, how much I try to fit in, I just can't...this world is not for me."
Nothing satisfied me or spoke to my heart, other than my children. Thankfully, I was never truly addicted to any of it and slowly learned to stay away from it all. Changing friends and direction.
- So, when faced with blackmail, what did I do?
Well, I wouldn't give in. I would not allow myself to be controlled by any of the world's high powers or any demons, no matter what they did to me, even to death. "Expose me" I thought. Back in 2015, I had wanted to write an anonymous book exposing it all anyway. I already knew why I was led down the path I went. I was already dead and knew it was based on the abuses of my life, what I didn't know is that they were the cause of it.
See blog post: War of the Roses
At this point I already knew God was involved but I still didn't understand or know enough to believe that God was fully protecting me as long as I stayed with Him. I just knew for my own self, for my own integrity, that I would not bow down to the threats. (Story of Job) My heart never wanted to hurt anyone; my heart never wanted to do the things that I did, but at that time, I felt it was my punishment for walking away from God/religion.
Little did I know, how wrong I was, and God reminded me of that too.
- What led me down this path?
POISON: Prescribed medications, falseness of family and friends, false religions, false political systems and dangerous, unnatural ingredients infused in our food/water, all leading to damaging effects of the brain. He taught me how I was programmed (transformed) by this world from the moment I was born. Subliminal messaging being placed in everything we watch and hear... he taught me how it's the demons that guide the governments and religion, leading ALL into destruction. They listen because of money and power...so they can control the masses.
Like a roaring lion and a rushing bear
Is a wicked ruler over a poor people.
— Proverbs 28:15
Religions hurt more than they help, the heads of it are deceived, then they deceive others to go out and teach the deception, and off they go to deceive the masses...knowledge of MAN, appointed by man, not GOD.
I know that after my departure savage wolves will come in among you, not sparing the flock; and from among your own selves men will arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away the disciples after them.— Acts 20:29-30
But evil men and impostors will proceed from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived.
— 2 Timothy 3:13
Slowly, God started revealing more and more to me through scripture. He had me return to the religion of my childhood that I felt had destroyed my family early in the 90's, so I did. I figured they too were awakened, I was wrong. It had not happened yet. He took me back to prove how false the "powers that be" were, now being a witness to how they treated me personally simply for claiming to be anointed by God. Being silenced and having many to turn against me.
From there, he has also guided me to other religions and Bible studies with varying beliefs, revealing how false they were too. All doing things according to their own will and understanding, their own power and control, never realizing it's a false spirit that guides and divides them.
The tower of Babel is another archetype... the tower (mind) of confusion.
Do you think that I came to grant peace on earth? I tell you, no, but rather division;
— Luke 12:51
I was taught by God to not show any kind of division, to be united with HIM in Christ, having no partiality toward any man, religious or not, political or not, loving ALL MANKIND because I belonged to the Kingdom of God.
And Jesus began to say to them, “See to it that no one deceives you.
— Mark 13:5
- Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of these things the wrath of God comes upon the sons of disobedience.
— Ephesians 5:6
- Let no one in any way deceive you, for it has not come unless the apostasy comes first, and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the son of destruction.
— 2 Thessalonians 2:3
- Little children, let no one deceive you. 👉The one who does righteousness is righteous, just as He is righteous.
— 1 John 3:7
Division of any kind, especially the church and state, is unrighteousness...
For our citizenship is in heaven, from which also we eagerly wait for a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform the body of our humble state into conformity with the body of His glory, by His working through which He is able to even subject all things to Himself.
— Philippians 3:20-21
Soon the nations/demons will turn to you. It is my hope that my story can help you through your trials as you experience them. GOD IS LOVE. He will protect you, but ONLY if you truly put your faith in HIM. Your faith will be severely tested. You MUST KNOW who the FATHER is...go to him so he can truly guide you to CHRIST.
Timing is everything...
Will you be ready?
Nations will come to your light,
And kings to the brightness of your rising.
— Isaiah 60:3
I pray that you are...~ Peace, Love and Joy ~
